Getting comfortable in a bad way
I realized for a while now that I have been very comfortable but in a bad way. I like where I am, not really seeing any problems here or there and like the Pink Floyd song says “I am comfortably NUMB”. But this isn’t good because I want to live a life that is fresh daily…not stale, stagnant, and moldy. What caused me to get in this condition as I searched It was revealed to me that I have been letting my desires rule me in a sense. If I feel like it I do it… and If I don’t feel like it and I have to do it then I have a very poor attitude.
I started trying to exercise a while ago to address some of the consequences of my condition, comfort. It did not work because I was modifying my behavior not my belief and perspective… and that belief is that if something is not horrible then why is there need for improvement.
What really was being attacked was my personal relationship with God, Jesus. I felt like I was alright and that there was no need for growth and so I had become stagnant and absent of any zeal or enthusiasm for the relationship and life in general. I had/have a desire to increase Our relationship but it was being drowned out by my other desires.
So I have decided to go on a journey, one that I have not been on before one which the sole purpose is to seek God. Not that he will meet me because of my efforts but I will be denying a majority of my desires because I am serious and it is not something I am entering into lightly at all. the purpose of going on this journey is to be transformed, changed, a new person, a deeper relationship… though I know this doesn’t happen by my efforts… it is something I desire the utmost. Now that I have off of school I don’t have an excuse and I wont let myself take an excuse not to go.
I have been comfortable way to long and to any one who has gotten comfortable in a worldly way, it’s time to get uncomfortable in order to grow.
Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. (hebrew 12: 7-10)
